Suicide Seeker (2) EP.49

"Then... why are you trying to commit suicide...? If your theory is..."

"You think it's pointless? ...Maybe it is."

"But... not everyone accepts fate, right?"

If there are people who accept fate, there are also people who reject and try to defy it.

"Well, in my case, it's too late to give up."

"...Huh?"

"I told you before."

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"I'm a suicide seeker. I've always been crazy."

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"I'm crazy."

Connections here?

Hoshino, Nonomi, Shiroko, Serika, Ayane, and even Sensei,

They're all precious. That's an undeniable fact, and more importantly, I don't want to deny it myself.

But,

"Do you know what's the first thing I did when I came here? I tried to kill myself in the desert."

From the very beginning, I chose my hometown over Kivotos, and I've continued to force this choice upon myself without wavering.

"...Give up? ...Yeah, giving up would make things easier. At least more than now."

There may be inconveniences, but there's no such thing as not lacking in life.

"But you see..."

"If I give up everything here, what happens to all my efforts until now?"

The mental and physical pain I've endured from killing myself, the blood I've shed, all of it!

"Who's going to compensate me for that?"

"...No, even if there's no compensation, it doesn't matter. This is something I chose to do in the first place."

I don't regret my choice.

"...But... but, you know...?"

If I give up here...

"Then... why did I give Hoshino an unforgettable scar?"

"...."

What was it all for?

Why did I inflict such a wound on a young girl who, according to the original story, only had happy days ahead?

"...So, I have no intention of accepting fate."

So that my actions, which hurt her so much,

Won't be for nothing.

"....."

Yume couldn't say anything to my heartfelt words.

She just

"...I'm sorry."

Offered another sincere apology.

"...I know."

Disgustingly so.

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"Ah, enough, enough. Let's stop talking about this."

It feels wrong to talk about such gloomy things after finally resolving a major issue.

"More importantly... Ah, right."

'I should've asked that, but I forgot.'

"Yume, so what exactly was that thing?"

The thing I'm referring to is my second mystic.

I don't know anything about it except that it's my mystic and that it's trying to take over my body.

"You should know. Since you made this body."

I mean, the reason it has a consciousness, or how it has the ability to show those futures.

"...I'm sorry, but I don't know the reason why it has a consciousness."

"...Really?"

Then the suspect would be black suit...

'He probably doesn't know either.'

When I asked his true name last time, he said he didn't know much about my second mystic.

"But I have a guess about the ability to show the future."

"A guess?"

"Yes, it probably... has some of my abilities."

"Your abilities?"

'...Certainly, if you had the power to bring me here, seeing different futures might not be too much of a stretch.'

And since this body is said to be the vessel of Isis... while in this body, the abilities...

"...Wait a minute...?"

It's strange now that I think about it.

"I've never questioned it before, but why does this body have two mystics?"

According to black suit and Yume, the only mystic they put in when creating this body was Yume's... Isis.

Then where did the second mystic come from?

And an unidentified one at that.

"I'll explain that."

"Agh, you startled me...!"

"You, why did you come out there...?"

"Black suit..."

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"Haah..."

My head hurts.

I just resolved a major incident, but it feels like an even bigger problem has arrived.

This is all because of black suit suddenly appearing and spouting those words.

"...Ah, I don't know. I should just get some sleep."

Thanks to that guy, I haven't felt like I've slept well lately.

I'm dead tired right now.

"Aren't you going back to Abydos?"

Black suit, who had just finished explaining asked.

"You should know if you saw it."

I pointed to the shattered personal alarm and said,

"That's also meant to call Hoshino."

If I go back now and something happens, it'll just lead to misunderstandings.

"That's why. It's wiser to just wait for Hoshino here."

"Then, what about Binah?"

"Huh? Eh~ That thing wouldn't appear just from that much noise, right?"

After all, I only set off the personal alarm to scare her.

'It's not going to actually come just because I made the alarm a bit louder, is it?'

"Even I know that much."

"Hmm... I'm afraid to say,"

"Binah woke up because of your personal alarm."

"...What?"

What did he just say...?

"So I'll ask you to please put it back to sleep."

"Then,"

With those words, black suit vanished in an instant.

And,

-Kugugugung-!

Before he even finished speaking,

-Kwaaaaaaa!!!

A giant worm appeared.

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"Haah... haah..."

'To start running as soon as my legs healed... I'm dying of exhaustion.'

With Binah's sudden appearance, I started running without looking back.

-Bang! Bang! Bang!

Dodging the lasers and missiles raining down from behind with all my might.

"Why on earth would I do something like this...."

Bang!

"Hiiik...!!"

'If I get hit by that, I'm toast...'

'...Toast?'

"...Wait a minute."

"W-what are you doing? Hurry and run..."

"Is there really a need to run?"

"W-what!?"

"No... think about it, my halo is back, right? That means I can die..."

"Is there really any need to bother running away when something that can kill me has appeared right in front of me?"

It was a golden opportunity like never before.

With that thought, I stopped moving and faced Binah.

And the Binah I saw was preparing to fire a laser.

I wouldn't die from getting hit by that... but it would cause considerable damage.

But that didn't matter.

Considerable damage meant it would be easier to die.

So,

"S-Sora-san!"

I laid down flat on the ground.

To maximize the damage from the laser.

Jiiiiiiing

Seeing this, Binah must have sensed a perfect opportunity as well, and started charging its laser to maximum power.

And shortly after, Binah's laser flew towards me.

...In the end, my body, which didn't resist the laser, was swallowed by the blinding light.

"Sora-chan!!!"

Along with a voice calling me from afar,

"...Oh. Um, I messed up again...?"