The Person I Shouldn't Be Found Out By Found Out EP.5

"Ugh...!" My head hurts. Is it because I'm low on blood? No, before that... "Why am I alive...?" My last memory was definitely of my ruined wrists and the bathtub. I should be dead. But for some reason, I'm not. The sight of Hoshino's room in front of me proves it. "...Could it be that Hoshino...?" Considering I was naked just moments ago, and now I'm wearing Hoshino's clothes with bandages around my wrists, it's obvious who saved me. I was saved by Hoshino again. "...Fuck." Honestly, it's fucking annoying. This isn't the first time, it's happened multiple times. But... "...I don't have the right to be angry..." Even if she interfered with my death, this is Hoshino's house, and trying to kill myself here is undeniably my fault. "Haah... I must be crazy, thinking of killing myself at Hoshino's house..." Even if I had actually died, once I came to my senses, anyone would know it's something I shouldn't have done... "Seriously... how am I supposed to explain this..." She won't believe any lies after seeing my wrists and the bathtub. "...There's no other way. I have to be honest." Tell her I want to die, so leave me alone. Yeah, it's my fault. I gave in to a momentary temptation. It's my mistake. So. "W-wait, Ayane, c-calm down, there's an explanation!" 'Please, just don't run away...' I understand her feelings. Seeing her face turn pale, like she might collapse any moment, I can understand how shocked she is, even if I don't want to. But you see, 'If I get caught this time, I'm really screwed!' I've only just managed to regain their trust, and a wrong move now will send me back to the old days. Back to being monitored 24/7! Not only that, but Nonomi will make me go to therapy every day, and Shiroko will stick to me like glue. I can't let that happen. I really can't. 'My mind won't be able to handle it.' "Th-this is... y-yeah! I was testing if these scissors were safe!" So please, just this once, play along! "...." 'Please please please please...!!!' "...Is that so?" 'D-did I survive...!?' "Then what about the wounds on your arm?" '...I'm dead, fuck.' As expected, seeing the wounds on my arm, Ayane didn't buy it for a second. "...Haah..." 'I really went through all that trouble to hide it from my juniors, and I still get caught like this...' "...Yeah, you're probably right about what you're thinking." In the end, unable to find any more excuses, I admitted it cleanly. "...Why...? Why would you do something like that...!" Of course, Ayane pressed me for an answer, but "Sorry, but please don't ask why." Even if I told her, she wouldn't understand, and she'd only think I'm crazy. Well, attempting suicide is crazy, after all. "...And I'm really sorry to ask this, but please don't tell the others." Not only do I not want to be locked up, but now that the original story has started, they'll be busy, and it's not good to burden them with my problems. "...I know you don't want to, but..." "...Okay." "Really...? W-wait, really?" "...Yes." I was sure she'd refuse, but despite her somber face, Ayane agreed to my request. Something felt off, but I guess it's better this way. "Th-thank you, Ayane..." "...No, I'll be going now. Please come as soon as you're ready. We'll leave immediately when you arrive." "O-okay..." With those words, Ayane left the classroom. "...Haah... That was close..." When I got caught, I thought my life was over, but thankfully it worked out. "Still, I should be careful for a while." Getting caught like this twice in a row, they'll be watching me closely, so I need to hold back for now. "Well, I guess I should finish re-wrapping the bandages." Relieved that things worked out, I changed the bandages, but at that moment, I was under a misconception. "Huh? Ayane? What are you doing here?" "...Sensei." Among the people I didn't want to know, "I need to consult you about something..." Sensei wasn't included. * Bang! Bang! "Agh!" "...Phew, is that the last of them?" "Yeah. Ayane just confirmed their retreat." "Yay~ Good work, Sora-chan~" "You too, Hoshino-san." This is the Helmet Gang's base. Following Hoshino's plan, we attacked the Helmet Gang's base at its weakest point. And as expected, we won overwhelmingly. We destroyed their supply depot, hideout, armory, everything. "Haah... I'm glad things worked out." 'My own situation too.' "Ehehe~ Me too~" Honestly, until I met up with everyone, I was worried sick that Ayane might have told them, but thankfully, no one seemed to know. "Well, let's head back now." So much happened in such a short time, I'm dead tired. I was about to head back to Abydos for a nap, but "Excuse me, but do you have a moment?" For some reason, Sensei stopped me with a smile as I suggested we return. "...Huh?" What? Suddenly, "What is it, Sensei? I want to go back and sleep." As I frowned, Sensei smiled and said, "It'll only take a moment." "...What is it?" 'This feels ominous...' "Under the bandages... can you show me your wrists?" """!!!""" "...Ha." This is insane. Looks like I'm really screwed this time. Getting caught by the one person I shouldn't have...