Chapter 129: Determination
"...Phew."
I sat down on the toilet, lost in thought.
"I really have to make up my mind soon, huh."
According to what Hisui told me, a period is supposed to come about two weeks after ovulation. Ovulation, as the name suggests, is the day when an egg is released. That egg has a lifespan of about twenty-four hours, during which if it meets a sperm and fertilization occurs, pregnancy happens. If it doesn't, the egg is expelled from the body during menstruation. That's apparently how it works.
My period cycle isn't regular because my ovulation day shifts due to the effects of female hormones or something like that.
In other words, with my unstable cycle, there's a chance today could be ovulation day, meaning I could possibly get pregnant.
That's why, if possible, I should get sperm and try to conceive as soon as I can—at least, that's what Hisui said. After all, the number of chances I have to get pregnant to save Alicia is limited.
I leaned forward, resting my elbows on my knees. My eyes fell on the panties and pad I’d lowered to use the toilet—a thin one I always wear just in case my period starts.
Of course, it hasn’t come yet.
"Pregnant… huh…"
Since I can’t rely on artificial insemination, I’ll have to get someone’s sperm.
Getting sperm means, in other words, having sex.
…Who on earth am I supposed to ask for something like this?
Apparently, it’s been proven that children can be born between people from another world and people from this one. Alicia once told me about a hero who was summoned to this world like me, stayed behind, became a noble, and had descendants.
So, it doesn’t necessarily have to be someone from another world.
The real question is, do I ask someone I know… or a complete stranger?
Emotionally, it’s definitely easier to ask someone I know. But even though my soul is Alicia’s, making someone the father of her child isn’t something I can ask lightly.
Besides, what I’m asking for isn’t sex for pleasure—it’s sex for the purpose of making a child. It’s one thing to be asked to have sex by someone you know, but to be directly asked for unprotected sex, to finish inside… if I think about it normally, it’s unreasonable. I’d be scared if it were me.
I could try to pretend my period hasn’t started yet, but I think it’s pretty well-known at school that my first period came during class…
Thinking about it like this, even if I choose someone I know, it would have to be someone I could talk to about Alicia’s circumstances. That narrows it down to Souma, Aymok… and maybe Dad.
First off, Souma is out of the question.
Emotionally, he’d be the easiest to ask… and if I really begged, I don’t think he’d say no.
But making him the father would be a problem.
I’m not planning on making him acknowledge the child or take any responsibility, but I doubt Souma could treat Alicia’s child like a stranger… I’m pretty sure he’d feel responsible.
And that could end up being a huge burden if Souma ever wants to date or get married in the future.
I can’t force that kind of trouble on him just because of my circumstances.
Besides, Souma is my only friend who knows me from when I was a guy. The thought of that relationship changing by becoming lovers—or more than that—honestly scares me.
If I’m only thinking about who would cause the least complications by becoming the father, it would probably be Dad. He’s already my father, after all, so becoming Alicia’s father shouldn’t be that big of a deal.
If word got out, it’d be social suicide, but as long as I don’t tell anyone who the father is, no one would know. It should be fine.
But emotionally, this is where I feel the strongest resistance.
I mean… he’s my actual Dad.
There’s no genetic problem, but the idea of doing something like that with my own parent is just… I don’t even want to imagine it. This isn’t like taking a bath together.
Plus, Dad has Mom.
I don’t know if it would count as cheating, but even if it’s with his former son, there’s no way it would feel good for a husband to do that with his family member.
If it’s going to cause problems at home, it’d be better to just ask someone else.
As for Aymock… I don’t really get him, but I have a feeling he’d be amused and willing to help if I asked. His sense of ethics is different, so I doubt he’d feel any responsibility just from becoming a father.
The downside is that I’d owe him a huge favor, and I’m a little scared of how Alicia might react if her memories return and she finds out Aymock is the genetic father…
Maybe a complete stranger would be better.
That way, I wouldn’t have to worry about making the other person a father. Plus, if we don’t even know each other’s names, he wouldn’t hesitate to… finish inside irresponsibly. Hell, I could even pretend my period hasn’t started yet. Damn it, what kind of ero-manga plot is this…
The real problem is how to find someone.
There’s no shortage of people who’d want to do that kind of thing with me if I looked. But how exactly would I go about it?
The first thing that came to mind was dating sites.
I don’t know much about them, but they seem like the quickest way to find someone for this.
The issue is that if the police catch me, I’d definitely get taken in for questioning.
And if the school found out, I’d be expelled. I wouldn’t care about dropping out since raising a child would make continuing high school impossible anyway, but it’d cause trouble for Yuuna, who goes to the same school. Worse, if the rumors spread around the neighborhood, we might even have to move away as a family.
Plus, I’ve heard that sleeping with random people carries the risk of STDs. Dating sites seem especially high-risk for that.
“…I really don’t want an STD.”
What else is there…? Social media, maybe?
Unlike dating sites, you can get a rough idea of someone’s personality from their posts, so it feels a bit safer. I could look for a lolicon pervert who seems nice and lure him in with a message and some lewd pics…?
“…Feels like I read an ero-manga like that recently.”
A random loli begging to be creampied is beyond suspicious. But would it work? …Probably. Because, well, men are men.
So in the end, the plausible options are either Aymock if it’s someone I know, or finding someone on social media if not.
Someone I know would be tricky, but I don’t like the idea of a total stranger either. A semi-anonymous outsider whose identity I can somewhat verify seems like the best middle ground.
As for being taken by a man… I’ll just have to treat it as a medical procedure and get it over with.
“Time for your big injection~! …Hah. Not funny at all.”
I muttered to myself, full of self-mockery.
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