Chapter 24: My feet hurt a little....

The very day I was transmigrated to another world, I masturbated for half an hour, longing for the touch of the male protagonist of this same game world….

Just like I said; there was no place to hide the truth from myself. In the end, I barely had the mind to return to my studies and was able to answer Mom's interrogation about it, before they left me alone to do my afternoon homework—after successfully passing with my current level of magical knowledge, of course.

Of course…I did my best to make sure Mom wouldn’t notice the weird smell I left in my room after going through several orgasms and it left a bit of a mess where I had to change both my dress (because of sweat) and my panties…after all, she doesn’t need to know that her daughter, about twelve years old, was masturbating to her heart’s content alone with the window open.

….I came 7 times masturbating as I pleased while I waited expectantly and excitedly for the appearance of a boy who unfortunately (No, fortunately!) did not arrive during the whole process, and I ended up with my knees slightly tense and sore because I let myself be carried away in a strange position....

Even though I knew I should be relieved by that fact, a confusingly mixed sense of shame, disappointment, and anger washed over me, and in the end I found myself utterly dissatisfied despite it all, thinking something like, “You visit me when I don’t even want you to, yet you don’t show up when I wish you were there… How useless!” while pouting childishly.

Honestly…It felt so good to play with myself, even though I was just exploring this new body I was forced into by a Mafia God, the thought that I could have been better with his touch wouldn’t leave my mind for a moment, which was extremely frustrating… sexually.

Damn female sex hormones, damn my perverted imagination overfed with porn and hentai…

Because of those feelings, I got in a really bad mood, which my mom seemed to notice, but didn't say much about it, thank God... shit.

Although I should have been more than happy that Thadeus-kun didn't see me in that state and succumb to his most primitive desires with me... I just couldn't bring myself to rejoice in it. It was hard to accept, but aside from my intact past memories, it seemed I had truly become Maru in every way.

Her love for Thadeus and her previously budding sexual desire for her childhood friend… they're all there, intact. I'm a little horrified by it, but I can't help it. That's because I find it completely natural at the same time.

When I thought about it, listening to Mom's orders felt natural even though I had never seen her in my life until this day, chatting with Thadeus-kun felt totally normal aside from a slight awkwardness caused by my memories as a Guide, and even interacting with the younger sister I never had as a man felt perfectly ordinary from all perspectives.

In all aspects, the only thing that seemed to have changed in Maru were the memories that make up my original “Self”… and they might even disappear at some point, turning me into Maru completely.

It should have been scary, but it wasn't... rather, although I felt somewhat uneasy about my original male identity, I thought it was normal for people to change over time...

Although I found it a bit unacceptable that my current body caused such drastic changes in my mentality…perhaps I'm contradicting myself…or perhaps I should be worried about what happened to the original Maru…

“Ahem…Maru-chan, you’ve been cleaning the same place for the past three minutes…” A random adventurer pointed such a thing out to me as I was deeply thinking about this and that.

“Ah…thank you”

I immediately felt sorry for myself. I hadn't realized I was stuck doing the same thing for so long.

Unfazed by the fantasy, I bowed slightly in gratitude to the Japanese-like dwarf adventurer, who just casually waved his strong arms as he left the inn towards his group, and headed elsewhere to continue my chores while shaking my head, concentrating on the current problems.

It was already afternoon, so it had been about four or five hours since I woke up in this body.

I don't know... anyway, at this time of day there weren't many adventurers inside our inn, as most of them were going to the nearby forests to hunt monsters, either to gain experience or complete quests appropriate for their ranks.

I had to concentrate a bit since it wasn't something that appeared in the game more than briefly, but according to Maru's semantic knowledge, the nearby Forest was a good hunting ground for adventurers who are about to abandon the "Beginner" label, as it is filled with relatively troublesome monsters such as Globins, Orcs, and Gnolls.

At the same time, it was a place to gather materials useful for Alchemy, which can cost a lot of money due not only to scarcity and danger, but also to the extremely rare nature of skilled Alchemists among humans, who have a much lower success rate than Elves.

Although, if humans were to strive to improve the science behind Alchemy and dedicate themselves to finding a method in which the Elemental Aura does not interfere with the process of transmutation or synthesis, they could solve the problem of potion making, but… no, it doesn't matter.

In any case, in the afternoon, there wasn't much work for the eldest daughter, that is, me, other than clearing tables and sweeping the floor with the maid. Occasionally, guests came to the inn, but they were locals who were eating light meals or came to gossip.

Throughout this whole process, I didn't even catch a glimpse of Thadeus-kun's shadow... perhaps he was embarrassed. However, perhaps that's just as well; I myself would probably be unable to face him after fantasizing sexually about him without being able to stop myself...

“Maru-Onee-chan, Mom says you should go outside and take out the trash!”

“Weren’t you studying? Why did he send you to tell me that?”

I instinctively threw that question to Lily, who suddenly appeared out of nowhere, saying that with a smile.

“Don’t worry about it. You know you just have to obey Mom~”

“Ugh” This girl…

Go outside…take out the trash…Do I really have to do it?

I don't want to pick up trash. I didn't like dealing with that stuff in my past life even if I had to, and even less so now, when it's probably less hygienic than in modern society.

But something tells me it would be a bad idea to disobey Mom… I didn't need to know that, but anyway, reluctantly too, I went to get the trash I was supposed to throw out in the kitchen…

Wait a minute... People who don't live in an environment very different from the Middle Ages or something take out the trash without just throwing it on the streets? Why exactly... Oh, I see.

Most of the trash we throw away is food scraps and biodegradable items or whatever. That, along with the garbage dumped by people in mass graves, was converted by garbage collectors into fertilizer for agriculture.

That knowledge, naturally, came from Maru.

I was a little surprised by this. Was it normal that in societies as seemingly undeveloped as this one, people would calmly use such things as compost?

I had the idea that in those days, the mere idea was very repugnant…it disgusted me too.

“Eh…Maru”

“Th-Thadeus-kun!?“

However, those thoughts would soon disappear from my head.

Because as soon as I left carrying the trash with my little arms while I was struggling, I unexpectedly ran into a clearly uncomfortable Thadeus, causing him to involuntarily drop the trash bag in my hands out of surprise and embarrassment.

“Good!”

…My feet hurt a little..