Main Story: Chapter 7: Including Myself

After we finished defeating the monsters, we hurried back to the city, receiving words of gratitude from the people.

This was because they could not completely rule out the possibility that the monster invasion was a demonic tactic.

It took less than three hours net to defeat the monsters and return.

However, the city was surprisingly peaceful and no notable incidents had occurred.

It seems that the demons were not involved in the monster invasion after all.

In the first place, it was surprising how easily we were able to subjugate the monsters.

I can't believe that despicable demon would come up with such a poor plan.

I don't mean to let my guard down, but it seems I was overthinking it.

"Phew..."

Eventually, the sun began to set and we decided it was time to rest, so Trust and I returned to the inn.

I'm currently in the bath.

Yes, baths actually exist in this world.

What's more, it has spread to the general public.

Well, it was originally set in the world of an erotic game, so I guess those kinds of sexy scenes are necessary.

Apparently, there are stories that, depending on the era, people on Earth would throw feces and urine out of windows, which is far better than a story that's strangely realistic and all the characters smell bad.

And I don't hate baths.

...It's actually harder to find a Japanese person who don't like it.

But this bath, is it Western-style...or is that Greek-style?

I don't know because I've never seen it in real life.

Anyway, I'm in the bath.

What a large public bath.

You can secretly peek at naked women as much as you like.

If I had remained a man, I would have been excited.

In fact, I feel happy to be able to look at a woman's body.

This is one of the perks of being a woman.

I wash off the dirt from my entire body, fully demonstrating my former manly spirit.

The monster's blood was wiped off with water and cloth, but it was still not possible to wipe it all off.

When I washed my body with hot water I could smell blood, so it's probably not something that comes off easily.

However, I was less afraid of the monsters than I thought I would be.

Perhaps those feelings are being strengthened.

I thought about this as I washed my body.

"..."

I mean, I am a woman...

I don't intend to say anything about becoming a woman now, and I intend to accept myself as a woman.

But when I look at my body again, I realize it.

When I rinse with warm water and touch my flushed skin, I will notice how smooth it feels.

My skin fibers are so smooth that it's hard to believe when I was a man, and it feels like I want to touch it forever.

By the way, the small palm of the hand that touches it is also very soft and squishy, which is amazing.

It's so soft, fluffy and squishy that it makes you wonder if it's even human.

I know this because I've looked in the mirror, but I am also a very pretty girl.

I'm cute though.

I'm short but has big boobs.

My beautiful cherry-colored hair, which reaches down to my back, doesn't even get caught on anything.

For Trust, who has been surrounded by beautiful girls up until now, this may not seem so bad, but I think I have the kind of look that would make an average man fall in love at first sight.

Suddenly, my gaze drops.

Even lower than my ripe breasts.

My breasts are a little large and I can't see them unless I lower my head.

My eyes are drawn to the female genitals.

Unfortunately, in my previous life, my life ended without ever experiencing sex.

So I've never seen a real female genitalia.

Well, I've seen it in uncensored AV that a sexy senior at university had, but I never see the real thing.

I do feel a bit strange about being able to see it as my own body now, but I guess it's a perk of the job.

After all, it's my own body. No one will complain.

With a pounding heart, I turned my gaze to my genitals.

My... Filia's vagina was a beautiful color, without a single stain.

It was so tightly closed that it was hard to believe it was a used part that had been shoved in there just yesterday, and as a former man, I felt something well up from the bottom of my heart.

There is not a single hair growing, and there is even a sense of mystery about the end of the closed slit.

Well, the mystery has already been pierced.

Still, even after being violated so much, to be in this state...it makes me realize the mysteries of the human body

I feel too mysterious.

"......"

Well, a lot of things happened today, and now that I'm calming down, I'm starting to feel an itch between my legs.

When that happens, memories naturally come back to me.

I know it's a bit much, but the most shocking thing that happened today was being raped until the early hours of the morning.

Fighting alongside Trust, defeating monsters, and being thanked by the people.

Rather than these noble feelings, I feel disappointed in myself for having erotic memories burned into my memory and for being so promiscuous.

However.

I'm making excuses to myself, but I was a virgin.

I've heard that losing your virginity is a memory that lasts a lifetime.

Regardless of how true this perception of it as a lifelong memory is, I think it's inevitable that if an inexperienced woman who had just had her hymen broken was violated to the point of becoming such a mess, it would be burned into her memory.

...Somehow, I hated myself for making this excuse.

I was extremely angry.

It can be likened to a feeling of disgust welling up from the depths of your stomach.

This must not be tolerated.

That's right...I hate NTR.

No matter how good it feels or what the reason is, it is never an excuse to hurt someone.

Even if it was an experience so pleasant that you will never forget it and there is nothing you can do about it, you must protect the parts of yourself that are important to you as a human being.

So, let me get it out here.

To be honest, the first time I had sex, it felt amazing.

Just remembering it makes me feel horny.

Just thinking about the places where Trust touched me back then makes me shiver.

I can't forget the feel and smell of that hot, sticky semen sticking to my uterus, vagina, and skin.

I was forced to climax over and over again, and my mind and body become dizzy, giving me a strange sense of accomplishment.

…….

"...Ahhhhhhhh...!"

I suddenly felt like holding my head in my hands.

What am I doing...?

What did I come to this world for?

At least I didn't come here to have a sexual experience.

Well, that's one way a woman can heal a man when he's hurt, but...

"Ahh... let's just masturbate!"

It's not like I'm fed up with reality and want to relieve stress.

I simply realized that I am neither pure and innocent nor a person who has achieved the pinnacle of calmness.

Now that I've realized that I have a strong libido, I need to think about how to relieve it.

The conclusion I came to was masturbation.

Then why not just let Trust do it to me?

I thought about that, but...I don't really like that.

Well, Trust and I have only known each other for a short time, but it's like a relationship between people, or maybe it's a matter of pride... in short, I just want to look good.

Well...I know three women who had their weakness taken advantage of and ended up being NTR.

Yes, if that happens, I'll tell Trust, no matter how embarrassing it is.

What? He already even see my face when I climax.

There's probably nothing more embarrassing than that.

In that respect, masturbation doesn't bother anyone and can relieve sexual desire.

What's more, it also protects what little pride I have.

"..."

So after I finished washing my body, I got into the bathtub and moved to the shade.

Even though it's an inn, I feel like I'm causing trouble to others by trying to do something that violates public morals, but I have to bear it.

I think Trust will probably be waiting for me when I get out of the bath, so if he approached me and invited me out in my current horny state, I'd probably go along with it without a second thought.

Well, even though it was the effect of the love potion, it's troubling that I've grown to like him enough to do it if he asks me.

After making sure that there is no one around, I submerged myself with hot water and indulges in erotic fantasies.

There is no material to masturbate to in this world.

Ah, no, I think it probably exists and I just don't know about it.

But in the sense that there are no pornographic books, AVs, erotic images, or other such materials that I'm familiar with.

In other words, how do women around this world masturbate?

I wonder if they're preparing some material to masturbate to, just like a man.

Or perhaps, like in pornographic books and games, when you're thinking about someone you love, you can't control your emotions and end up doing it without thinking.

I can understand physical changes because I feel them directly, but I don't understand mental changes.

Anyway, concentrate. Think about something naughty.

That's right... I'm a naughty woman.

Masturbating while feeling embarrassed in a place where others might be watching.

Maybe I'll be found...and I'll feel a slutty excitement.

I thought, feeling a little drunk as I directed my hands to my large breasts.

Although it was a place that had been played with so much yesterday, I had never touched it for that purpose.

Or rather, until yesterday I didn't have the time to think about anything naughty.

So... well... even though it's my own body, my heart is pounding.

"...Huh?"

So I tried touching my breasts, but...to be honest, it didn't feel very good.

Just like what Trust did to me, I gently touched my nipples, traced my areola, and inserted my fingers into my vagina, but I only felt discomfort.

No, not feeling much is an understatement.

It doesn't feel good at all. In fact, it hurts.

Huh? Why?

Of course, I think Trust is better, but is the difference really that great?

As I was wondering about this, I suddenly remembered the reason.

['The contents of the bottle are an extremely powerful love potion that only works on you.

When you take this drug, you will be overcome with strong feelings of love for Trust.

It also nullifies all charm effects and blocks all pleasure from anyone other than Trust.']

I remember when the effects of the love potion were explained to me.

That last part.

Block out all pleasure from anyone other than Trust.

Does this include myself?

"Ugh..."

What a thing to say.

In other words, I've become a woman who can't even masturbate properly...

That in itself is appealing, as it makes me seem like a pure girl, but it also leaves me feeling disappointed.

Well, I have a higher than average sexual desire, and it's tough in many ways not being able to satisfy that desire on my own.

So why do I have to go into this state of self-absorption?

What on earth should I do...?

...I guess I have no choice but to have sex with Trust after all.

Even though this fact has come to light, I still feel a little bit of emotion because of my memory of being a man.

It felt even better than that, and if he actually asked for my body, I'd probably agree no matter what.

I am in love with Trust enough to give my body to him.

What can I say, that love potion is pretty half-baked.

I think the quickest way would be to avoid this kind of conflict and get to the point where I can say things like "I like you, I adore you, I love you'' with hearts in my eyes.

However, if that happens, will God's purpose of healing my soul cannot be achieved?

I guess it's just about making me fall in love with him without ruining my individuality.

In fact, looking at it objectively, I've only had the experience once.

I guess it was a little...too intense to call it that, but broadly speaking, I've only had sex once.

It seems that I'm becoming addicted to pleasure...

"Hmm..."

Since things were getting a bit tedious, I decided to just enjoy my bath.

Baths are also a great way to relieve stress.

…….

………….

……………….

...I don't care, but I feel like Trust could tie cherry branches in his mouth.

"....yeah"

Yeah, I'm getting hot.

It's probably because I was only thinking about sex.

I got out of the bathtub, dried myself off, got dressed appropriately, and then went outside.

"Ah!"

Outside...Trust was sitting in the rest area, waiting.

I don't think I spent that long in the bath today, but I wonder how long he was waiting?

When Trust noticed me, he came over to me in a good mood.

Seeing that scene... I started to feel aroused.

Like this... my whole body's blood is boiling and I can't calm down.

Is it because the heat from the battle with the monsters hasn't yet cooled down?

Yeah, maybe that's it. Let's leave it at that.

Anyway, I'm frustrated because I wasn't able to masturbate.

If possible... yes.

Oh, no, nothing.

I feel like there's a line that shouldn't be crossed, even if it's my own thought.

…….

What would Trust think if, after being fucked so hard yesterday, I told him I wanted to have sex again the next night?

Hmm, I don't think Trust would mind that much.

But my... no, my dignity as Filia, my grace and dignity, I can't give in.

"Well, were you waiting for me?"

"I just got up here."

Despite that, it seems like the heat has cooled down quite a bit.

That's it. I washed my body slowly, and I was thinking about naughty things, so maybe I was the only one who thought it was a short bath.

Rather, I was bathing according to Japanese standards, but it's entirely possible that by global standards, it would be considered a long bath.

But Trust... the man is hiding it.

As a former man and now a woman, I want to understand Trust's feelings.

I think a good woman will accept him modestly.

This is what you say in situations like this.

"Thank you"

Trust looked embarrassed as I said this kindly.

Yeah, I'm not wrong.

"So, why don't you come to my room now?"

To Trust's room? Now?

Is that it? Is this what they call an invitation?

Is this something we can expect going forward?

At least that must be the intention.

Yes, if I had an animal tail right now, I'd be wagging it.

That's how I feel.

Well, I feel a bit hesitant to approach a man when I'm still inexperienced, but it's not wrong to accept an invitation from a man, right?

I remember what happened yesterday.

I'm sure I've thought this many times before, but I'll repeat it.

To be honest, at first I was reluctant to be raped.

I was originally a man, and even though I felt like I loved Trust because of the love potion, the part of me that was a man hadn't disappeared.

So it was humiliating to be raped by Trust, a man.

But,....but!

After being gently and carefully made to melt, a deep intimacy filled with animalistic lust takes place.

I've already reached a climax and it feels so good, I think to myself that if I go any further I'll go stupid and I can't take it, but I go beyond that and am overcome by the pleasure that takes over me.

I came many times and ejaculated many times.

So many times that it's impossible to count them all.

And now I can't masturbate.

Well, I guess it was worse than the sex I had with Trust, who was a good match and had a lot of experience.

...I wonder how it ended up like this.

My plan was to make it look a lot cooler..

I find it annoying to keep worrying about the same thing over and over, but it's not something that can be easily dismissed.

But I'm here to save Trust.

I want a happy ending.

So I think what I can do is to heal people who are suffering right now.

It may seem like I'm trying to gloss over myself, but these feelings are also my true, honest thoughts.

Trust is still hurting.

He is trying his best not to run away from sad things.

I hate it when people who work hard don't get rewarded.

This world may have originally been a game.

But now it's an undeniable reality.

The reality is that sometimes the results you get are not as good as the effort you put in.

Still, I want those who have worked hard up until now to be rewarded.

So, including my wishes and desires, I want to say this.

"P-please treat me well!"

...I got a little too excited.

Try to picture of a TS girl who is quickly being swallowed up by the hero's scheme due to various factors, but who thinks it's her own sexual desire that's to blame.