Chapter 10: Reclaiming My Inner Manhood

I stayed behind at the office even after working hours ended, continuing my tasks alone.

When I finally glanced at the clock, it was already ten.

Looking around, I realized no one else was left. Even Kana-chan had gone home earlier. She was probably waiting for me right about now.

"Ahh… I wanna go home…"

All I wanted was to bury my face in Kana-chan’s chest. But I couldn’t leave yet.

Whenever I’m stuck working alone like this, I can’t help but wonder—what am I even doing?
People have expectations of me, sure, but isn’t the workload distribution a little unfair? It’s obviously heavier on my side…

"Making money’s such a pain…"

Still, I told myself to hang in there a little longer and kept going until eleven. Only then did I finally pack up and head home.

"I’m home…"

As I opened the door and murmured those words, Kana-chan appeared from deeper inside the apartment, already in her pajamas.

"Welcome back. You’re late again, huh? I really should’ve helped out…"

"Nah, it’s fine. I’m just… so tired."

"You’ve worked hard. Do you want dinner first? Or a bath?"

"Mm… Kana-chan."

I wrapped my arms around her.

"Hey! You’d better eat the dinner I worked so hard on!"

"Fair point."

That night, I had dinner, a bath… and Kana-chan.

"Hey, Shachou, what made you decide to become a CEO?"

I asked, sipping my usual orange juice across from her at our go-to family restaurant.

"Become a CEO? You mean why I started my own company?"

"Yeah, that. Basically, why you chose this job. I kinda just went with the flow, and now I’m wondering if that’s really okay. I’ve been super busy lately."

"That busy, huh?"

"The workload distribution’s weird. I’m the only one drowning in work. I can’t dump it on Kana-chan either, so I end up working overtime like crazy. Well, at least she makes dinner and takes care of me when I get home."

Lately she’s toned down her sadistic streak and just… heals me.

"Maybe they’re just piling all the capable work on you. But wait—are you two living together?"

"Pretty much. My place is close to the office, and I gave her a spare key. So now her stuff’s slowly taking over my place."

Even her underwear’s there. Smells amazing.

"I see… Oh right, my reason for starting a company. Sorry, it’s nothing impressive. I just hated working under someone else."

"Ah, a rebel mentality?"

"Not exactly. I just couldn’t stand being told to do pointless things or dealing with unreasonable people. I hated being like everyone else. Back in high school, I looked down on the ones who just fooled around, and in college, I looked down on the ones job-hunting. Basically, I was a jerk."

Whoa, very self-aware for someone so intense.

"And now?"

"Starting a company was tough. I’ve had to bow my head countless times and swallow a lot of unfairness. Honestly, getting a normal job would’ve been easier."

So even Shachou had it rough. No wonder she drives a Benz.

"What about you, Chihirocchi? Any plans for the future?"

"Ah, college doesn’t really appeal to me. I’ll probably start working after high school. Not sure what yet, though."

"You should become an idol with Tama, nya!"

Nyako suddenly throws out the idea.

"Nah, can’t do that. I’m not the type who can smile and charm people."

"It’s easy, nya!"

Nyako flashes a dazzling grin.

"No way… I can’t pull that off."

"Eromi, give it a try, nya."

Prompted, I smile sweetly.

"Whoa, that’s impressive. You look like such a nice girl. Shame about the personality though…"

…Excuse me?

"Nyako, why did you become an idol anyway? You’re loaded."

Seven hundred million, to be exact.

"I was scouted, nya. And even if you have money, it gets boring after a while, nya."

Yeah, that makes sense.

"Wonder if I’ll ever get scouted?"

"You might, since you look good, nya. But I wouldn’t recommend it—you’d get canceled in no time, nya."

Yeah, no thanks. I’d rather not get flamed online.

"Are, uh, casting couch things real?"

"Who knows, nya? Tama’s not in some huge idol group, so I don’t really know, nya."

"If it did happen, would you go along with it?"

"Depends on the guy’s face, nya."

Right, she is into good-looking men.

"Make sure to tell us how it goes afterward."

I want to hear about Nyako’s bitter first time.

"They say being in a girl’s body feels amazing, right? Is that true, nya?"

"Beats me."

"Only Eromi would know that one."

"Huh?"

"You guys don’t, you know, ✕✕✕✕ or anything?"

"Nope."

"Idols don’t do that, nya."

"Of course not."

Ehh…

"But you did back when you were guys, right?"

"Every day."

"I was basically a monkey, nya."

"Yeah, I did too."

What’s the difference then?

"Then do it. I still do it all the time—and Kana-chan even made me do it in front of her once."

More than once, actually…

"Kana-chan’s completely become your master, nya…"

"Eromi’s perviness isn’t news anymore, but ‘do it’ doesn’t help. I don’t even know how."

"Same here. Honestly, it’s kinda scary."

These people…

"You guys lost something important along with your ds, didn’t you? Reclaim your inner d!"

"To be honest, I’ve thought about it. But what am I supposed to use as material? If I watch AV, I end up empathizing with the actress instead…"

Ah, so Shachou’s into POV-style stuff.

"Then just watch lesbian ones."

"For real…?"

"For real. I use Kana-chan’s photos and stuff she’s left around."

"Um, I still don’t know how, though…"

"Chihiro, did anyone ever teach you how to ✕✕✕✕ when you were a guy? You just move your hand however feels good. If you want, I can lend you a vibrator or a rotor."

I’ve got plenty at home.
Mostly for punishment, but still.

"I’m good, thanks… I’ll figure it out myself."

"Suit yourself."

"And you, Nyako?"

"Tama’s an idol, so I’m fine, nya."

"What’s wrong, monkey?"

"To be honest, I don’t really know what to do, nya. Back when I was a guy, either way was fine—but now that I’m a girl, my kinks are all over the place, nya."

That’s… complicated.

"Ah, so you were the top, huh."

So, male or female, you were the one doing the entering.
But now, you’ve got the body that gets entered.
Yeah, that’d mess with your head.

"That’s right, nya. You sure know a lot about this, huh?"

"I’ve been researching how to turn the tables."

For the record, I’ve tried a bunch of stuff—but none of it’s worked yet.

"Ahh, I see, nya. Well, that’s why I’m fine, nya."

"You want a double-ended ✕✕✕✕?"

"I don’t want a used one, nya."

Yeah, me neither.
Especially since it’s one Kana-chan used.