Chapter 34: It's disgraceful

Does having a hobby that shouldn't be discovered being discovered feel like this?

I feel like jumping out the window right now from shame.

Fuck.

Shouldn't have restored the replay.

Why did I restore what shouldn't be restored and create this disaster?

I cursed at my past self who confidently demanded replay restoration from the streaming site, and carefully approached Noona who was looking at me with contemptuous eyes.

"Noona."

"Don't talk to me, you fucking pervert bastard."

"No, I told you I'm not a pervert? It was strictly for the customer's needs..."

"That's usually called self-rationalization, you mental patient bastard. If you weren't a pervert, you would have refused firmly, wouldn't you?"

Noona cowardly brought only facts and started arguing logically.

"If you really weren't a pervert bastard, you should have used abnormal fetishes only for the first broadcast and stopped? The next broadcast, and the one after that. Even the latest broadcast you're drawing only abnormal fetish pics, where does it show you're not a pervert?"

"I drew quite a lot of normal fetishes too? Like a Fox Beastkin getting discipline-pure-loved by a big-dick bald black man, or a Fox Beastkin getting confinement-pure-loved by a Yandere Crazy Psycho Lesbian..."

"Crazy bitch! That's not normal sexual desire! Fuck, pure love should end at pure love, what's discipline pure love and confinement pure love? And, fuck do you think Yuri is a normal sexual desire?"

At my biological older sister's angry shout, I refuted with a serious and calm voice.

"Noona, think a little. Even having one hot Fox Beastkin becomes a tremendous side dish for Happy Time, but there are two hot Fox Beastkin? Wouldn't the arousal double just by simple calculation?"

"...You unfold bullshit quite elaborately, my cute younger sibling."

"I am a bit cute."

"Yeah, cute enough to bite and kill. You fucking bitch!!!"

Smack!!!

Noona struck the top of my head with a knife hand chop and said.

"You, are you going to keep doing this? Receiving money given by strangers whose faces you don't even know, along with sexual harassment, while giggling hehe, are you going to continue this vulgar life!"

"I have no choice but to continue to live, Noona. Do you think I do it because I want to?"

"If you don't want to, don't do it! Why are you forcing yourself to do something you don't want to?"

At Noona's angry voice coming from stifling frustration, I answered with a voice calmer than ever.

"Because that's how I can live."

"...What?"

"I said I have to broadcast to live, if I don't broadcast, I have a terminal life. This body, it looks okay on the outside but it's completely broken inside right now."

Maybe the black fox did something when she visited this time, overflowing with Vitality and Demonic Power, I gained 3 more years of time though.

To live longer and see more awesome R-18 Fox Beastkin manga, I have no choice but to continue broadcasting even forcibly.

And, even if I gather Vitality from 1 million people as the Fox God said and become able to go out.

Even if I can hide the fluffy ears and the soft and luscious tails, basically I am a recluse loner.

Being a super loner who fears others' gazes and is reluctant to even make eye contact unless it's a close person.

To communicate with people at least, I have no choice but to do internet broadcasting where their direct gaze is not felt.

Of course, if I gather Vitality from 1 million people and completely escape the terminal life, I might quit internet broadcasting and earn money just by taking commissions as I used to live.

Or create super hot Fox Beastkin porn myself and only have Happy Time through that.

Was I tickling Noona, who fell silent at the word 'terminal', with my tail?

Noona approached me, stroked my head, and spoke wistfully.

"Sigh, retard bastard. That's why I told you to stop jerking off. Said your bones would rot."

"No fuck, bones rotting isn't the problem, my gender changed. And into a form close to my ideal type!"

"I told you it happened because you jerked off 3 times a day! It's all self-inflicted, you pervert bastard!"

"Then can Noona endure seeing a super hot manga? If you get an erection, it's a national rule to bust one nut!"

"This crazy bitch changed into a woman and says anything to Noona? Do you really want to die?"

Murderous eyes and a posture ready to attack any moment.

The Fox Beastkin's unique animal senses tell me.

If I act up any more, I go straight to the netherworld.

However, a younger sibling must say what needs to be said even under the oppression of an older brother or sister.

I approached Noona with an infinitely serious face and whispered with a voice like rolling jade marbles.

"What can I do when I'm horny? Then Noona, don't you masturbate seeing a hot manga?"

...I got beaten like a dog on dog days.

"Eat well, contact me if there's trouble. I'll visit frequently so don't change the password. You might really die."

"If you visit more than three times a week, I'll move. I have enough money to move?"

"I have contacts too, so if you move needlessly and get caught, you really die. Understand?"

"Even if I die, I'll die crying for freedom. I am a citizen of a free democratic country."

It's already chaotic with crazy beings intervening in my peaceful daily life, and Noona intervenes here too? Wouldn't that be the start of a true catastrophe?

Looking at Noona trying to interfere in my life somehow with a face like chewing shit, Noona sighed and raised both hands.

"Your poop is thick (You're stubborn), bastard. Oh right, what are you going to tell Mom and Dad? Now the time you can hold out with texts or KakaoTalk is less than a week."

"It'll work out somehow, Noona buy me some time for now. I'm not ready yet."

"What is there to prepare? Just blurt it out like today. I'll tell Mom and Dad about the situation, so contact them within a week. They are waiting desperately for your contact."

"Depending on the situation. I'll contact as soon as possible so don't worry too much."

Noona left the one-room apartment after repeatedly telling me to contact our parents, and I issued an eviction order to the bald childhood friend bastard still remaining in the house.

"Hey, you get lost too. I'm gonna broadcast now."

"Doesn't matter if I'm here? What could happen during the broadcast."

"I feel like more problems will arise because you're here? What would people think if you and I are together?"

"Wouldn't they just think normal boyfriend or sex partner? What's the problem?"

"If a male bastard is involved, the amount of incoming Vitality changes. Got turned on seeing my body but if a bald muscle gay is next to me, wouldn't they lose their erection immediately?"

When I gave a rational reason, the guy nodded and packed the things he brought.

"Makes sense, then call me again if something dangerous happens. Don't hold out needlessly and lose your virginity."

"Don't worry, I won't lose my virginity in my lifetime."

"You know that saying is a flag, right? Looking forward to it since it seems you'll become a bitch who knows only mating."

"Stop bullshitting. Take care, baldy bastard. Not seeing you off."

"Yeah, good work."

After sending away all uninvited guests, I quietly summoned the Fox God.

"I have something to ask."

— What are you curious about?

"Vitality suddenly increased sharply after the fox lady visited, right? Can you tell me what happened?"

The body that always creaked and complained of fatigue after the fox lady visited now doesn't feel tired at all even if moved vigorously.

Recovery speed seems faster too, and overall I feel vitality circulating in my body.

Since meeting the childhood friend bastard, I haven't felt becoming healthy even once, so it wouldn't be the childhood friend bastard's ability.

Then doesn't it mean the fox lady did something to my body?

I asked the Fox God with worry in my voice, and at this, the Fox God laughed loudly and answered my question.

— Do not worry too much. It is all something I handled. You just have to enjoy the feeling of becoming healthy.

"Still curious though, tell me what you did to make my body healthy."

— Just ripped off a huge chunk of Vitality the fox lady gathered. As Vitality increases, the body's collapse speed slows down giving a relatively healthy feeling.

Answering calmly, the Fox God pointed to the monitor and continued.

— You do not need to think other thoughts. Just think about how to extract more Vitality. I will handle everything else.

"That's very hard to believe. With the number of idiot things you've done so far, believe you?"

— You must trust Me entirely.

"Rather than trusting you, I'd trust a cat with a fish. Even if the sky splits in two, I won't trust you."

Trust the bitch who removed my precious Baby Maker and changed life into hard mode?

Bullshit galore, fuck.

Even if that bitch gives me a billion gold and asks me to believe her words, I will absolutely never believe her.

To believe mindlessly, the moves that bitch has made so far are too spectacular.

Was I staring intently at the Fox God smiling meaningfully?

The doorbell rang, and the sound of the delivery man leaving a package was heard.

Finally arrived, the essential item for the next broadcast.

I used the fox's tremendous hearing to confirm no one was around, and opened the door just extending my arm to bring the package into the one-room apartment.

As the package entered the room, the Fox God immediately expressed curiosity.

She looked around the package and opened her mouth as if fascinated.

— What is this again? Judging by the packaging, it looks like clothes.

"Clothes is correct. Although clothes I absolutely can't wear outside, and even inside under normal circumstances."

— Means obscene clothes. So, why did you buy these cumbersome clothes? Are you preparing some ritual?

At her question, I grinned and told her where these clothes would be used.

"The concept for the next broadcast is a super hot Fox Nun giving confession."