Chapter 41: Home

[I will give you any amount multiplied. How much do you want? 500k? 1000k?]

[I like Artist-nim's art style so much. If I could get just one more pic, I could even offer a billion gold!]

The insect porn commission applicant tried to get one more picture from me offering several times the previous commission price, but after careful consideration, I refused his request.

[I am sorry.]

[Why? Just drawing one yields the price of twenty-five pics! Why on earth are you refusing?]

The abnormal fetishist asking as if completely unable to understand.

I answered him with a firm attitude.

[Because there is no 'arousal' in insect porn.]

[...Are you disparaging my taste right now?]

[No? Not disparaging. I'm saying this because insect porn really isn't arousing.]

Sending the reply, I recalled when I drew the insect porn.

Did the Gumiho's unique sexual desire react to the massive horn of the rhinoceros beetle?

No, it didn't. Rather, it only coldly subsided even the existing sexual desire.

Then was the female side arousing?

No? The Mesugaki getting disciplined had arousal points, but because she wasn't a Fox Beastkin, it wasn't arousing at all.

I carefully thought, would I have felt a slight arousal if the Mesugaki was a Fox Beastkin version?

Imagining a Fox Beastkin suffering from a rhinoceros beetle, the arousal rather halved.

And I realized.

Insect porn is absolutely incompatible with me.

And if I keep drawing insect porn that isn't even arousing, I won't be able to draw pictures that arouse myself.

Why did I start drawing?

Wasn't it to draw things that arouse myself?

To self-supply more arousing Fox Beastkin pics, to operate my Baby Factory Starter more actively.

I started for that, but draw pictures that don't arouse myself?

Look at the pictures I drew with a gaze of disgust?

That cannot happen.

Rather than that, it's better not to draw even if I give up a billion gold.

[If it sounded like disparaging, I apologize, I didn't mean it that way at all. Just, I'm afraid forcing myself to draw pictures I don't want to draw will harm both of us.]

[Wouldn't it get better if you try? You get used to seeing anything if you keep watching.]

[I think it's right to experience something that doesn't fit only once, I don't really want to experience it multiple times. Thanks to you, I had a good experience, thank you.]

[...Really can't be helped?]

[Even if I receive more money and draw one more, the quality will be much lower than the previous one, and eventually neither you nor I will be satisfied. There's a saying to leave when applause is loudest, right? That time is now.]

As I drew the line once again, the commission applicant expressed regret and bid farewell.

[You worked hard, Artist-nim.]

[Thank you for using my service, Teacher.]

[The opponent has left the chat room.]

Having reached a somewhat heartwarming conclusion, I sighed deeply and sprawled on the bed.

Hard.

Mental exhaustion is too severe.

I want to heal, is there no way to heal?

Yeah, let's go into HiXX and find super hot fox manga.

If I spend Happy Time for a few hours watching manga, there's nothing more healing than that.

I endured for two days (Jon-ber), surely a few must have been uploaded.

Fox Beastkin content is normal sexual desire, so surely at least one artist must have drawn it.

I executed the VPN app on my phone and immediately entered the HiXX site saved in bookmarks.

And, entered the three letters I always enter in the search bar.

Fox.

Arousing but possessing that many traps, the tag Fox.

Before pressing the search button, I prayed towards the direction where the Fox God is.

Please, may no disgusting images appear from the start.

And, may Tag: Furry not appear attached to Tag: Fox.

I pressed the search button with an earnest heart, and the result.

"This fucking shit!!!!!"

Perished like a dog.

What I saw as soon as the loading screen ended was not the revival of the dead but the symbol of males.

And the tag attached like a ghost, Yaoi.

Vomiting blood internally, I scanned the entire 1st page, but unfortunately, only despair existed there.

Fuck.

Shouldn't have prayed to the Fox God, should have prayed to Buddha or Jesus or Allah instead.

Come to think of it, praying to that bitch wouldn't have achieved what I wanted.

In the first place, that bitch grants wishes in the opposite direction, right?

Right, she granted it in the opposite direction so only gay stuff and furry stuff came out in heaps.

Next time I should just pray for heaps of gay stuff and furry stuff to come out, then maybe super hot Fox Beastkin manga will appear?

Just as I was about to press page 2 and proceed with exploration again, suddenly my vision spun and as if waiting, fatigue started rushing in crazily.

"...Happy Time, wanted to have it."

Seems the mental damage due to the page 1 Yaoi tag was considerable.

But if I sleep like this, I feel like it will appear in my dream, it was a disgusting image intense enough to appear in a dream really.

I tried to open my eyes forcibly, but the accumulated fatigue didn't allow it.

Eventually that night, I ended up witnessing two male furries playing the fire truck game in my dream.

It was a terrible nightmare.

Of all things, dreaming not about two super hot female Fox Beastkins becoming sticky slugs, but two male furries appearing and playing the fire truck game.

It was a disgusting nightmare I really don't want to experience again.

"Urgh... Bleeeuurgh..."

Was I dry heaving at the content of the nightmare surfacing again? The Fox God approached with a face full of worry and asked about my well-being.

— You, did you mate while I was gone? In My view, it looks like morning sickness.

"What dog sound (bullshit) is this again fuck."

— I heard in this era there is something called a pregnancy tester or whatever, how about testing once?

"Has this minor god bitch finally gone senile."

I threw a pillow at the Fox God expressing anger.

"Already distressed having a fucked up nightmare, do I have to hear fucked up words too? This crossed the line, you bitch!"

— Just what kind of nightmare did you have to say such words? Did you mate in the dream? Strange, if it's mating, it shouldn't be a nightmare?

"It's a nightmare fucked up even to explain so don't ask, disgusting enough to make me vomit."

Was I holding my throbbing head due to extreme stress?

Suddenly, hands hugging my head and the supreme cushion feeling felt on my forehead made my mind go blank.

A seductive voice heard through the blank mind.

The Fox God, having manifested sometime, was hugging my head and laughing fufu.

"This is a reward for you who suffered until now, something no man who spent a night with Me has received, so consider it an honor."

"Even if you say that, I'm not particularly happy? Made me suffer like a dog and the only reward given is hugging?"

"Fufufu... Does the tail of a person who isn't happy wag like that?"

"Hmph."

I spoke curtly, but actually, the moment I buried my face in the Fox God's chest, all stress flew away.

Excellent size, and tremendous cushion feeling.

The performance of the Fox God's baby food bags radiating benevolence was tremendous, and thanks to that, the nightmare that was raping my brain endlessly just now became dust and disappeared.

"Are you feeling a bit better now? Is it okay if I disappear?"

"...Didn't need you originally? Go back to spirit state quickly, don't make a person feel complicated for no reason."

"Pfft, as you wish."

The Fox God smirked and immediately returned to spirit state, and feeling the lingering sensation remaining deeply on my head, I threw a question to her.

"Oh right, I have one thing to ask."

— What are you curious about?

"Is there no way to hide ears and tails for just a few hours? My parents told me to come tomorrow, but it seems I can't go looking like this."

Two reasons I haven't gone out of the house until now.

One is because I'm a hikikomori loner, and my childhood friend bastard took care of trash and stuff so there was no need to go out.

The other is because I was scared of being caught as a test subject in some underground lab and researched if I went out.

If I hide these twitching cute ears and luscious fluffy tails, I might try going out somehow, but I can hide ears, but tails can't be hidden no matter what method I use.

If there really is no way, I have no choice but to summon my parents to my room even if I get beaten to death by my father, but if my parents come to my room...

[Is this a raccoon's den? Don't you ventilate? Said you'd live well independently but living like a dog mess.]

[Uh... If a dog lives here, isn't dog mess okay...?]

[Child... talking back...?]

I'll get beaten mechakucha (messily) and dragged away forcibly to live.

And living at home in that way.

I'll be self-conscious about having Happy Time, self-conscious about internet broadcasting, and further, it will definitely have a bad influence on commission work.

I have to go myself somehow.

As expected, getting summoned there myself is much better than summoning parents here.

So I stared intently at the Fox God who would know the answer, and at this, the Fox God smiled broadly and opened her mouth.

— That is...